Constance Wu teared up on Red Table Talk this week when she revealed she'd attempted suicide as a result of the backlash following her Fresh Off the Boat renewal tweets.
During her sit down with hosts Jada Pinkett Smith, Willow Smith, and Adrienne Banfield-Norris, Wu recalled the messages from a former colleague that pushed her to want to take her own life.
"Can you take us through how you ended up on the ledge of your fifth floor balcony?" Willow asked the actress, after they read the cruel messages Wu had received following the reaction to her tweets.
"It was after reading these DMs from an Asian actress..." Wu explained, laughing through her tears as she recalled holding onto a blanket as she prepared to jump from her balcony onto the New York City street below. "A friend who had come to check on me pulled me over from climbing over the ledge and dragged me into the elevator and took me into a cab and took me to a psychiatric emergency room where they checked me in... I slept the night on a cot in the waiting room in a psychiatric ER in New York City under observation."
"I had to be in therapy with a psychiatrist and a psychologist every day for a while," she recounted. "It was helpful. I needed it. I was unsafe at that point... I was in a mental place of just beating myself up and so much shame and feeling like I didn't deserve to live. Feeling like the world hated me, feeling like I'd ruined everything for everyone."
Wu's book, Making a Scene, details the harassment she was subjected to by a senior producer while making Fresh Off the Boat and the "betrayal" she experienced from the Asian American community following the backlash she suffered.
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