"I know I should be thankful, but I don’t want to be fake," Trista wrote of her husband Ryan, who won her heart on the first season of The Bachelorette. "And, I’m struggling. This guy...my rock, my best friend, my hero, my love...is struggling. Not everyday, and not to the point that he can’t work or cook or exercise or be with family, but enough," she continued. "We’ve been struggling for months. Struggling to get answers."